Sunday, May 22, 2011

A Sudden Realization....(22nd of May 2011)

>Shopping.....I used to love shopping, I could spend an hour in a chemist. One day I spent the whole day in Target..I was only going in there to get some socks for the girls and before I knew it, it was time to pick them up.
I don't shop that much any more!! 
I have thought about it a few times - as to why I don't go that much anymore but I could never find the answer.
Anyhow, a couple of days ago I saw a link that one my friends posted and I felt as though it had been written for me ..It was about parents of type 1 diabetes children.
The expert stated that on' looking into the parents, sleep deprived eye's , she could see the tears just behind the eye's.
It was after reading this. I realized that I started feeling this way. 
I think people can see the sadness and sleep deprevation in my eyes >> come to think of it- they even mention that I look tired'."I'm actually afraid that they might think I'm not coping well" it's best to just stay home and keep myself occupied.
Well!!! I'm not doing this any longer..I'm going back to the shops as the same whole person I was!  and yes I probably do have sleep deprived eyes with tears just behind them but I am not broken yet it's just hard some day's.....